The Beginning!!!!

Every time I go in my closet I get depressed because half of the clothes in my closet don’t fit me. When I go to but new clothes I get depressed because I can’t find any that fit me and because I am so tired of spending money on bigger sizes. Before getting pregnant with my first son, Jayme, I was a healthy weight for my height. I wasn’t the skinniest person, but I was big either. I suppose I was average but I was comfortable with myself. I was comfortable wearing shorts, tank tops, skirts, tighter shirts, bathing suits, basically everything. Now, I’m not comfortable wearing anything except my husband’s t-shirts (that at one time would swallow me but now they are only a size too big).

I gained 66 pounds while I was pregnant with Jayme and only lost half of it. Then when I got pregnant with the twins I gained 34 pounds. At my 6 week post partum I was back at my pre-Twin weight. At some point between September and December 2009 I gained between 20 and 30 pounds. Yes, I know that my weight is the result of pregnancies, but I'm tired of being fat! I can’t wear the clothes that I bought after having Jayme, nor the ones that I bought last summer.
I tried working out using Jillian Michaels’ DVDs but I couldn’t stick with it. I came up with every excuse I could. I wanted to do her “30 Day Shred" DVD twice a day but when I start to think about it, I come up with other things to do. I did Jorge Cruise’s “Belly Fat Cure” for a week and lost 2 inches around my waist and 4 pounds. I was so happy with my great results! But I quit because I couldn’t go without the sugar and never started back. I gained those 4 pounds back.

I have finally had enough! Last Wednesday night I signed up for Weight Watchers. I have been doing it since Thursday morning and have lost a little over 1 pound. The first couple days were difficult and I went over my points for the day and used some of my ‘extra weekly’ points. Yesterday, I managed to only use my daily points and had enough left over to have a WW dessert! I was so thrilled! I wasn’t as hungry yesterday as I had been the previous days. I went to the grocery store yesterday and bought some frozen WW meals for lunch and some desserts. Hopefully that will motivate me to stay within my points for the day! Today I bought the Leslie Sansone Walk at Home DVD “5 Day Slim Down”. I tried this online last week and really liked it so maybe I will stick with this DVD and lose some extra weight. I plan to use it 5 days a week since each day is different. My goal is to lose 50-60 pounds (along with my squishy belly) and be able to fit back into my old clothes (pre Jayme). I don’t know how long this journey will take but I’m going to do it this time! I know I will have some bad days along the way but I’m not going to give up this time. I am tired of crying when something doesn’t fit right or doesn't look right on me. I am tired of wondering if Cody is lying to me when he tells me I look good in something so he doesn't hurt my feelings. (By the way, my wake up call was last week when my mom bought a dress for me, I came home and tried it on for Cody and he told me he didn’t like it because it made me look huge. I returned the dress yesterday.) My short term goal is to lose some weight (I hope at least 20 pounds) before we go to Panama City Beach September 21!

I can’t believe I am doing this but I think it needs to be done to motive me some more. On June 3, my starting weight was a whopping 197.2 lbs.
My measurements are as follows:
Waist: 41 in
Hips: 45 in
Thighs: 28.5 in
Arms: 14 in

It may not be everyday since I may not always have the time, but I am going to post as often as I can about my journey through weight loss. Wish me luck!